21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?
22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven. Matthew 18; 21-22
This is one of the hardest scriptures to put into practice, this I must admit. How do you forgive someone who continually does things to hurt you intentionally? What does forgiveness look like? Where does one even start to forgive? Does forgiveness mean one should forget the deeds that are done unto them? One of the most difficult but yet liberating acts to perform is forgiveness, first to yourself then to the person who has hurt and tried to ‘rob’ you from your peace. ‘Rob’ because one can only do so much to stir up your emotions, if they take away your peace, it means they have control over your life! It means they can press any button on you to react and truth is only you have such power over your life, only you can assimilate yourself to that extend.
To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.
– Lewis B. Smedes
What then is forgiveness? How does it look like? For different people forgiveness can mean different things but it has to liberate. Forgiveness does not in any way mean that you have let go and forget what has happened. It certainly does not mean that what was done to you is or was okay. On the contrary, forgiveness is saying yes, you have hurt me and acknowledging that fact and not holding on to what could or should have happened. This can also mean stepping into other people’s shoes to better understand them instead of feeling offended or judged. Maybe that is why is it one of the most difficult things to practice.
There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love. – Bryant H. McGill
In his book, Jay Shetty, ‘Think like a monk’ describes and articulates forgiveness to be a process of four steps and calls it ‘Transformational forgiveness.’ The four stages as he describes are; zero forgiveness, conditional forgiveness, transformational forgiveness and unconditional forgiveness. The first stage being zero forgives is when we are so stuck in anger that it is hard to forgive anyone, when our minds cannot even comprehend what has happened. The stage is very discombobulated and uncomfortable. Conditional forgiveness entails that, I can only forgive you when you show remorse and apologize. This stage is mostly to feed our egos and emotions more than it is to let go and be at peace. The next step, transformational forgiveness is a liberating stage where you say, it is fine, I can forgive you without an apology. Where you hold the power and say I will rise above what you have done to me. Where the forgiveness is not a reaction from an action. The last stage is unconditional forgiveness, this is driven by love. Mostly from parents to their kids, that no matter what the child does, the parent will forgive them.
How do we start the process of forgiveness? Well yes, forgiveness is a process and we must first comprehend and acknowledge that and give grace to ourselves. We should always have boundaries to ourselves and in dealing with other people and honor them. In as hard as it may seem, we have to go through the betrayal and try to go through the emotions. Let our minds go through the emotions without torturing ourselves. This can mean accepting the betrayal without expecting a change or what your ideal response could have been.
It is psychologically impossible to forget what has happened to us. Forgiveness does not mean forget the trauma, but it certainly means leave it behind, leave out the baggage. We cannot control what memories stick in our minds and which do not, the best gift we can give to ourselves is to acknowledge what has happened and rise above it. Forgiveness does not mean acceptance of what has happened because if it is, it will mean that you are justifying what someone has done to you. This is a journey of every individual and different to all of us, for the most part it feels different for each and every one of us. But most importantly forgiving is for ourselves more that it is for the other person. We forgive because we were forgiven on the cross with all that we have done and will continue doing.
And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you -. Ephesians 4;32.
14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. – Matthew 6;14-15
The bible clearly instructs us to forgive one another and be kind to each other. We should however also be kind to ourselves and remember this is a journey and starts with a single step. It is not because you are a coward that you would want to forgive but because with unforgiveness comes so much burden and sometimes hatred. We should love ourselves that much that we don’t allow the anger from the mistakes of others to control us.
Love Nthabz xxx